I WROTE A SONG LAST YEAR AFTER DESPAIRING AT THE STATE OF POLITICS/RELIGION IN NORTHERN IRELAND, HERE'S A WORDY OUTPOURING TO GO WITH IT:
I’m quite afraid to post this song/spiel, as to what my family, friends & peers might think; but I have been told how important a band or artist’s “story” is & this might be mine.
Some people know, some don’t, that I am the son of a Presbyterian minister, a loving Dad who always wants the best for me. My family grew up a small church in Killyleagh until I was fifteen, when we moved to a much larger church in the Bible Belt of Northern Ireland: Ballymena.
That I was a preacher’s son was something I usually kept from people, especially as a teenager; out of fear of judgement, embarrassment, or the assumption that people would think I’d be a certain way. (Are you good living too?)
In more recent years, an aspect that weighs heavily on me, is to be part of an obviously Protestant, religious family in a divided land & not being comfortable in identifying with “either side”, or sure whether to be Irish, British, Northern Irish, or is it all three? (As you can probably tell by now, I’m fairly insecure)
This all may seem totally trivial to some & will no doubt be quite a polarising post, but I wanted to put it out there. None of my sentiments here are intended to be hurtful, no matter your beliefs or values. (Unless you’re a DUP fan, I suppose...)
The song came out the way it did, the idea behind it being that you can endorse the concepts of religion, of Jesus or faith, without condoning or aligning with the likes of the DUP, who give any sort of Christianity a terrible name.
Growing up & even now I struggle to find my own sense of purpose; not feeling like I could call myself a Christian in religious circles, or call myself a non-Christian in non-religious circles. Neither mould seemed to fit & it’s a part of my life I don’t think I’ll ever be able to fully let go of, whether it be an active seeking or just a quiet questioning.
Life, eh? “Just don’t be a dick”, sure I agree with that, but maybe there’s more to it? (Sometimes in life it’s pretty hard to not be a dick, let’s be honest) I’m just seeking answers like anyone else; some days I go to church, some days I go to the bar & drink too much, today I hope you can take something from any of this.